Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Monday 15 October 2012

Friends Come and Go

Falling in love can be like droplets of rain falling to the earth, especially when you are young. At least it was for me; I never knew what I wanted exactly but loved the feeling of immersion in another person's life, enveloping your own inside theirs so the two became interchangeable.

It's 1994 still and I'm surrounded by uncertainty across the globe. A lot happened in Europe in this period and I often felt I was outside of it when I should have been inside it. As usual finding consolation in wine and books.

Falling in love made the boredam of life and being on the outside go away, it gave reading books a sort of meaningless equation - books were not the means to an end. Literature simply delayed the inevitable destruction of oneself.

We were all growing distant, each of us trying to struggle in our way through the vagaries of experience, and some were better than it than others. Finding a lover, someone to share more depth and intimacy with sort of produced an intense feeling of calmness.

The only problem was when that calmness came crashing down to be replaced with its oposite on the spectrum - deep anger and loss - life felt pointless. That's the wonderful feeling of being young, one can pick oneself up so easily.

When relationships end you understand just how much you love a person, and whether or not it's worth fighting for. On this ocassion it was not, despite my feeling of loss and isolation.

It spurned me ever onwards to find that escape route away from the boredam and stagnation.

Friday 1 January 2010

Tokyo - The Walls are Creaping In - Will I see Her?

Infinite Spring Falls
Where is my Love?
I know you don’t dwell in the obsidian tower;
I know you don’t dwell among the doves.
I know you don’t dwell among the flowers;

Where I am now, I imagine your face,
Carved of marble and lace.
Eyes of green sapphire breathe of passion.
Our spirits of ascension,
Rise to the occasion.

These are the dreams that I desire.
They sing and dance and feast with exquisite fruits.
I will always be there with magical wings on my feet.
I will fly over the walls of the elegant garden,
Of infinite spring falls.
Where the nymphs and elves gather round.